Bleh. I've just been feeling bleh, bordering on depressed. I don't know why. I am pretty sure there's not a "why" behind it so much as just a bad combination of chemicals in my brain hitting me at the wrong time, when the weather is shit, and so many things in my life are just blah. I was feeling weird all week, and started realizing I was in fact depressed by the end of the week.
I started self-medicating, well, taking a larger dose of Wellbutrin. And that seems to be helping, a lot. I had a lot of energy yesterday, and used it to clean my house and do my laundry. And I watched a bit of the Puppy Bowl with Kiki, who seemed to really enjoy it. In fact, she liked looking at the dogs more than at the Kitten Halftime show. I was actually kind of surprised how homogeneous the kittens did look because they were almost all tabbies. Where are the sleek black cats? The siamese mixes? The torties? I know it's not really kitten season and it was probably hard for them to get a good selection, but I would have liked to have seen more variety.
Anyway, I'm working on it. I recognize the problem and am dealing with it as best I can. I'm glad I have therapy tomorrow. I'm still not feeling like contacting people I don't know, but I'm not cutting myself off from my friends.